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Living in this life,
could only make me feel so sick now…
I don’t even know why I could make that outlook which people think I am cheerful…
Because that smile? that laugh? that synergy?
they think they know me…
have they ever known that I cry for no reason?Well, I don’t wish to view my life in that pessimistic way, I want to change.. to have a real life..
I mean a life with people.. people who really care about me..           not just for single while..
people who really hate me..                    although I don’t wish this happen..
people who really smile at me…              because they want to..
people who really angry at me…              if then, I will try my best to apologize..yes, I need people..
people who really teach me about life…
people who really give me reason to live…
people who really support me…
people who really know who I am…
people who really know my feelings..
people who really feel that I am sad or happy..
people who really rejoice with my smile…
people who really … 
really know that I am exist…

well, I don’t know I am right or wrong.. why am i so confuse?
I try to ignore everything that make me sad.. make me down…
I try my very best for that… So, I can have my smile.. I can live my life happily…
my goal? I confused…

I even confuse with myself..  I don’t understand myself…
I wish to be optimistic about this life…
I wish I have goal to live in this life..
I wish I have reason to struggle…
I wish I have smile to share with everyone..
I wish I have happiness to share with my friends and family…
I wish everything to make me full alive..
strong..
bold…
gentle…
pride…

~rhyn~

<9th June ’07>

life

At the moment, I felt kindda shocked because one by one the things that I hope from previous blog has come true. One incident that brought myself down to hell which really happened to me was one of my friend at my school are angry with me and I’ve tried to apologize… But then, the result is worse than I’ve ever can think of. We have not been spoken to each other for like a month. During that time, I have tried every single movement to apologize and try to mend our friendship. Nonetheless, everything was just too hard to be fixed. I was struggling without her notice, I sobbed at myself as not be her friend anymore. That time was the hardest time I have ever had with frienship. ‘Till now, we are still in cold war, or I can say both of us are pretending not seeing each other anymore. We walked pass by each other as in there was no one there. I don’t wish to do that, but I don’t know what else to do after her rejection of my apology and explanation that had brought my self-esteem talking to her daunt.

I have no idea how will this friendship goes. Big question is still popping in my mind everytime I meet her.

Has it broken? Or it is still shrinking? If it is still shrinking, does it mean I still have chance to fix that shrinking friendship?  

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I have learnt nothing, and I really wish to learn something from this incident. Am I the evil one or it is just her that stubborn?

Is friendship really exists?? or will someday every friendships that I have vanished without my realization?

Rhyn~

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This is the comment that I dropped in one of my friend’s blog, kenung.. hehe ^^ And then I found it quite interesting to post about it here…

So, the main idea of her article in the blog is about No hope = No disappointment.

And here is my respond to that BIG PHRASE 🙂

..I do hope for a lot of things..

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Like sometimes, in my head there will be lots of dreams that I hope to achieve someday. Then, I know that most of the things I hope are too “exaggerated”, if I can say. I mean I wouldn’t be able to gain those dreams, obviously. *prejudgement*But still, I think hoping is still a good thing to do. When you are hoping for something, you will be motivated to do something in order to get them. And when you fail to get it, you will be haunted with “disappointment” like what you said. But, when you get that hope, the most excitement will embrace you.If you afraid of disappointment, you will never set any goals or hopes, and you will regret not having hope. Because, when you get something, you will never feel content about it. And if you never experience disappointment, you will never learn to get up and do your best as well.Without setting a goal or hope, someone will just wondering at current situation and let life pass worthless. That’s what I think..

Well, I think this topic is quite interesting.. N I like to give opinion about this kind of thing so I just posted it here to share with you all this concise view about Hope…

Cheers, 

Rhynchan~

Hi, everyone!

みんな げんき? 私は ”デシ” です。大学生 です。よろしく おねがいします。^^ (How do you do? I am Rhyn*nickname* . University student. Nice to meet you all!)

Well, I am not a Japanese, but I just like the way Japanese introduce themselves to others, so I tried one. I hope that’s the correct way to introduce oneself.

I like to write, but sometimes doesn’t feel so proud of my writing, part of the reason because some people think it is bad writing, the other reason is because I don’t have time and I write very slow… haha 😀

I like singing, making loud sounds in corridor, smiling without reasons, crying with tons of reasons,

But, I laugh at most of things… 

I like poking my friends, doodling in lecture notes, taking picures, listening to pop, jazz, RnB, instrumentals… some types of rocks… 🙂

I love to traveling a lot,

I hope I will have dozens of time and money to enjoy myself travelling around the world some time in future alone or with someone who also have passion to travel.. well *as soon as posibble *

I really hope to know my friends, my family, my cyber’s friends, and all beloved people reading my blog… Do leave your comment ne! coz if you read it, but not leaving any trace of your presence in my blog, I will never know right?  🙂

Well, hope to see your comments…

じゃ、that’s about me… see ya…

Rhyn~

Meaning of Life~

There are so many meaning of someone's life. Those meanings though are hard to understand and detected, people still searching for the meanings. I know that my life will only meaningful, when I realized the meaning of my life. Until then, I am still a wanderer in this one and only life. I won't feel sad even I still blur and have no clue about what my life will be. "All things happen for reason(s)" will be in my dictionary forever. And because of reason(s) that I will still live on and smile. :)

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